Coming Up Aces

The Written Spectrum

To whom it may concern… — April 13, 2015

To whom it may concern…

Welcome! Here’s your obligatory introduction: Coming Up Aces is a writing blog where I’ll be sharing a variety of my own pieces, tagged and categorized so that specific genres are easy to locate. I’ll be writing about any number of topics, though probably not in equal measure.

Links of contact are at the top of every page!

Teeth — May 10, 2015


If ever I seem


ask me about

my teeth.

Straight white

laces, triangle-squares,

jagged from one

too many punches,

a chip in enamel

and on shoulders.

Crooked, beastly

things, colored around

the gums and hard to reach

places, pockets with

secrets that you can’t

fish out.

If ever you wonder,

Why are you afraid?

Ask me, and I

will tell you how

I floss to the last tooth,

and always swallow blood.

I Will Do Anything For You — May 3, 2015

I Will Do Anything For You

Once, when I was younger, I didn’t cry until I heard my stomach grumble.

Birds found perches and chirped—muffled, through closed windows and walls; sounds from another world. My cat searched for my arm, did his best to curl everything onto me, but layers of blankets separated us.

I’d lain in a sort of spread-eagle, arms out like Christ, believing I was ready for Heaven. I stared at my ceiling and experimented with death.

It was a stirring of late at night and early morning. Sleep deprivation was my self-punishment. If I was hungry for anything, it was liberation, freedom from the dark while the sun rose, willing myself to see the beauty. Pulling all-nighters alone are synonymous with a lack of appetite and apathy.

All you can hear during summer nighttimes are insects and tree leaves. Maybe you can hear the grass hugging each other, or the sighs of the sleeping as they escape everything.  All I could hear was the sound of my heart, calm and relaxed, finding solace in the nothing.

Can you hear the tiny growl that came from my empty belly? I came up with many reasons to cry—I wanted that growl in my heart. I also wanted to be so far into the abyss that there was no sound, no hearts and no stomachs.

Long after that day passed, I would cry for a different reason.

A cutter slips flesh into two halves, and the body, as you do, carefully begins the process of clotting, cleaning, and convalescing.

A suicide-watch case steps to the edge of a bridge, feet and hands barely quivering. Adrenaline is preparing you to survive.

A depressive’s stomach growls.

We don’t ask for these things, but they happen anyway.

The body’s eternal will to live is a kind of love.